Is it healthy that I don't give a fuck if people leave me? Believe me, I love a handful of people and I'm so thankful that they're in my life, and I'm determined to put just as much joy into their lives as they put into mine. But I imagine them leaving me, and I don't care at all. I imagine them walking away, and all I can think is, "That was cool, onto the next."
I think this prevents me from getting hurt, but does it cause a certain level of disconnect? I wouldn't say I'm okay with being lonely, but I seem more than okay with being abandoned.
Also, vice versa. In my mind, if I wanna just stop talking to someone, I have no problem doing it. I have no problem with goodbyes, long term and short term. Like, I'll be leaving a party and people are hugging me, telling me not to go, and it feels fucking retarded because we'll be seeing each other again within the week. Is this healthy? It makes me nervous, but I think only as per the possibility it's unhealthy.