I'd like someone to explain a change that happened
For a long while I saw getting a job in my desired field as being the penultimate achievement, I would finally be a complete human being after that. That said, I had extreme anxiety, and it made me dodge even preparing for getting that job.
Now I just see it as one of the things you do in life, and I no longer search for that 'end all' solution to life. I also have no idea what it was that I was searching for. I'm definitely happier.
What happened?
You settled for less, and found your happiness elsewhere. Not bad I'd say, it saves you from frustration and a lot of other shit.
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Why do you think this happened, though? I didn't make that choice consciously
It really feels like some part of me went 'Fuck this,' and then a vice unscrewed itself from around my chest