I try to increase my confidence but I'm introverted,shy,

>>18698965
What are you afraid of OP?

>>18699039
existensial dread. ( Getting GF, marry,kids,work a soul diminishing job ) if that happens it will cause me to think less and work more and eventually I'll become a cultural normie like the rest of earth. My identity will be lost but at the same time. I fully don't know who I am.. since I'm still studying.. I want to get off this career ladder and just want to focus on myself.
My brain gets into this mode when I start talking to people and all forms of life is just hollow.

>>18699039
I'm also feared of not getting liked. I don't care what others think of me but I want people to laugh.
The thing is that can't joke about anything these days without getting socially lynched.

if I for example would make a religious joke it's considered offensive and I find that lame.
all other normie joke, I don't consider them as "good jokes" and a waste of time.