Why are suicide hotlines so full? So many people wanting attention.

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Why are suicide hotlines so full? So many people wanting attention. Am i one of those people?

My life hurts and i cant stand the pain. I tried making stop but every thing i have to do comes with an excruciating inner pain on the chest. I bring holes in other peoples lifes I get involved, money wise. Today im about to waste SO family money by not going on a simple trip they paid. That is crossing the line, i wont ruin other families lives as well

My family is tired of my bullshit. Im tired of my bullshit, and my SO is tired of my depressions. She must expect me to hold and carry her in every hard time on my life, but when im low and depressed, I cant do that, so she gets sad and threatrns break up. I want to marry this girl in 2 years, because I love her, but she must learn how to not rely on me for her happyness, because I suffer from depression every month or so

I took two sedatives now to get rid of hesitation, im very high right now as you call tell. If I decide yes, then ill pop 5 more and sit near the edge this rooftop I am on, wait for the effects. Then once the drowsiness and sleepiness.sintoms show up, I will eventually let go of the edge and fall

I.cant get rid of this pain, and now making holes in other peoples families is too much. I.have xlcrossed the line here

Im posting this to reflect and hear responses. Please dont call the police


The harderst part is building the str to go and lie down there. I already have the meds, which was another difficult acomplishment

Im 24. Have two doctors helping me