I started a new job as a developer a few weeks ago and I feel exhausted and burned out already even though it's been a calm start.
One single project with no stress and a good introduction and I'm surrounded by competent and funny colleagues.
Yet I'm a mess and feel like shit.
I can't remember anything. Names, what I just did or what someone just said. I can barely speak, my voice is hoarse and I have trouble forming coherent sentences. I can barely think.
At my old job I would be a go to guy who remembered every single detail about projects and systems and would juggle multiple projects while dealing with customers and leading development.
I don't know why this is happening and I don't know what to do. Suddenly I just.. broke.
I think part of the explanation is that my ego has been hurt. I used to be a rockstar. Now I'm surrounded by people who are a lot better than me. I'm not used to it and I feel like a loser and a fraud which leads to crippling anxiety about failing and getting fired. But if I keep thinking like this I will never be able to prove myself..
Any suggestions on how to recover?
Situations where you feel uncomfortable/others are better than you can often be where you'll learn the most/fastest. Don't be ashamed of messing up. If you work hard here and try to learn from the others, you'll find yourself improving at a much quicker pace than you did at your old job.