>Half of me wants to have a gf and experience love
>The other half of me is content to be alone and wants nothing to do with love or having any emotional attachments
>Half of me hates myself for always ignoring everyone who likes me
>The other half of me feels like it's the right thing to do and that getting involved with anyone is too risky
What the hell am I going to do? I'm trapped in a viscous cycle of self misery right now because I don't know what I want.
>>18687771
Wtf, why do you have 4 halves?
Two halves really. I just stated each half's opinion twice.
>a viscous cycle
>viscous
>>18687771
>I don't know what I want
You do know what you want; you just dont want to commit to it or face the risks.
Grow some balls and realize that its not going to work out 100% of the time, but it's better than being a pussy all the time.