im in a tangle, /adv/. i need perspective.
i broke up with my gf recently and it was a great decision. ive been in long term relationships for 7 years and theyve always been with depressed, slightly BPD girls, and it made me think i was also depressed. now that ive been single for an appreciable amount of time ive realized i can pass as a normie, and ive been spending a lot of one on one time with this SUPER cute girl who im absolutely in love with. im pretty sure she's interested but ive never had practice with regular, normal ppl courtship. i get nerves, I act weird, I sometimes get defensive when she teases me and go too far when I'm teasing her. So far it's been fine and we've continued to get closer but im gonna have to make a move soon and I feel like I'm gonna drop all my marbles. No idea wtf I'm getting into or how to manage the feelings of inadequacy when I'm around her - feels like she's way outta my league. Wondering if I should just hide under my covers for the next month instead of talking to her again.
/adv/ sucks