>no hobbies or skills
>addicted to the most fucked up porn/fetishes you can imagine
>constantly feel like shit/guilty, hate myself so much it's unreal
>only online friend who understood me is (rightfully) getting sick of the piece of shit that is me
>RL friends are autists/people I drink with
>therapist doesn't really help
What the fuck do I do? I can't even buy a gun to kill myself or anything. This really, really sucks.
>addicted to the most fucked up porn/fetishes you can imagine
Like what?..... I got a problem with an Amazon/Giantess fetish, I don't understand why I do but it sure as shit turns me on
>>18687221
>Like what?
I also want to know this
Time for a positive change in your life.
Start by changing your attitude. None of this shit is easy but only you can help yourself. No one else can do this for you. The sooner you understand this isn't easy the better. There is no easy way out but on the brightside, once you aknowledge a problem you are half way there to solving it. There is only SO much shit a person can take. How much more are you willing to put up with that?
I can't go into detail about everything. Try to set some goals and improving your life objectively. Start fitness, start a diet, start money mamagement, try working on some people skills, improve your hobbies, learn something new, read a book.
Yes this is very general but they are ideas. If you need a fren my skype is NeuroPhen. If you feel like you need a fren or wanna talk more you can contact me, if not try looking for personal development programes and definitely try volunteering. Helping others is a decent way of helping yourself too.
And most importantly of all, CUT THE WEIRD PORN. It's only messing with you and your sexuality. I'm not saying go for the nofap meme but definitely cut off weird porn.
>>18687221
The worst ones are:
Cuckolding
Getting cheated on behind my back
Cheating on others
Raceplay
Chastity
Findom
Foot worship
Extreme verbal abuse
Being coerced/talked into killing myself (only fapped to this like once though and was drunk as fuck)
>>18687226
Thank you very much. I'll definitely cut out the porn, yeah. Most of my problems stem from things concerning my sexuality, always has been this way. I'll try to set up something akin to a schedule, since I'm a NEET I'm mostly just lazing around
>>18687235
>most fucked up porn / fetishes you can imagine
>normie shit
I wrote an erotica about a 9 year old boy who was put in a jail cell and 6 black men aging from 20 to 60 years old gang raped him. then the dad hated him afterwards and started whoring him out.
>>18687235
>Cuckolding
>Chastity
>Getting cheated on behind my back
>Being coerced/talked into killing myself
AHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Nah man it's hopeless
Kill yourself
>>18687235
Either engage in it or stop fapping
>addicted to the most fucked up porn/fetishes you can imagine
this is 4chan, we already know about scat, guro, furry, pedophilia, typophilia, and tiles