My best and only friend who I've had incredible amounts of feelings for, for so long, just told me how obsessive I am over her and that she needs space with our friendship. From the look on her face and the way she talked I can tell that nothing will be the same between us again. Can't put into words how godlike she is to me and how deep my lust and insanity for her run from our past together. Like all other humans are pathetic sacks of meat and she is a beautiful broken angel above all of them. She has a full life but for me, she was all I had. My reality feels like it's shattering. Need help
>>18674148
are you over 18? dont worry the mods dont check beyond the first post. your options change drastically if you are over 18.
>>18674163
I'm 18 in community college.
>>18674176
shes not your best friend, or rather, you aren't hers. you are just some guy she can't seem to get rid of that she didn't mind having around at some point. things 'arent ever going to be the same again' sure, but they never were what you thought they were. even on the platonic level your friendship is almost entirely one sided.
you were just another face in the crowd of her life.
>>18674163
But like I said, I'm not even remotely attracted to girls. They all seem so fucking shallow, empty and disgusting. This girl transcends all concepts of that by leaps and bounds and I legitimately don't think someone else can recreate these feelings.
>>18674180
Fuck. I've been entertaining that all night but I keep trying to throw it away because of how much it breaks my fucking heart.
>>18674193
okay.
>>18674197
better to break your heart. you'll see her for what she really is: just another girl. not the 'goddess' you keep trying to explain she is.