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Alright /adv/ this is going to be a semi-long post as I need someone to comfort my thoughts on the following matters.
First, let me tell you a bit about myself. I used to be an obese, insecure introvert that played video games and spent a shit ton of money. I was pretty much like this from 13 years old to the end of Fall semester of my freshman year. I got tired of being a shy, insecure virgin and lost weight. I'm now slightly overweight even after building muscle from lifting weights, so I've come a long way, although I have not reached my goal yet. Back then I never wanted to party, drink, do drugs, or in general go to big social events. Now I want the exact opposite, in fact, I am now extroverted (I am a sophomore so I changed largely in the Spring this year). I no longer play video games and I try to get out socially on the weekends.
Now I will try to explain these changes: I have always thought of myself as more of redpilled when it came to my world view. I realize that everyone around me (that is in America, a first world country) is living in paradise compared to third world shitholes. I feel guilty for this, I take shit for granted. Because of this, I think I realized this and finally started to cut out some of the pleasures of my life like food and video games. It could just be that I became more outgoing as one could argue that partying is as much as indulgence as playing a game.
The core issue: I am an atheist, I don't see a reason to believe in a God. In fact, I believe that whether or not a God exists is not the issue, as I don't think it can be the root cause of existence. In short, I think existence is impossible to understand, it's a paradox. Am I nihilistic? Absolutely not. I think this idea should encourage people to live their life to the fullest as life is all we know. Because of this, I want to maximize the potential of my life and hope to please others while doing so.
Will continue in next post.
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Continuing.
Sometimes I genuinely think I would sacrifice myself to save humanity or a large sum of people, whatever the scenario is. Idk why, maybe a lot of other people think this as well, but I think my sacrifice would be worth it if it meant everyone got to live and enjoy the rest of their lives. This is why I feel guilty about living in such a luxurious life, even as a poor college student. Because I know that I can give my life up right now and aid those that are in need. Why don't I do it? I don't know. Perhaps I think that isn't the best approach to solving our problems. At the same time, I want to live my life, however.
If any of you have similar thoughts, please share. I'd love to discuss.
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I thought I could help other people. But the universe sets the rules. And the rule is you have to look after yourself first before you can help others. In fact, if you want to help other people you must look after your own basic needs first and your families.
Then go help out in the third world and shit once you got it together
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>>18670278
That's the thing though, pretty much everyone in a first world country has all their basic needs satisfied.
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>>18670236
Ah, fuck it you tried so hard on this so I'll read this long post. Yeah I just took a brief read and I can see you're sad about the rest of people. You do you, you do what matters to you and what makes you happy. If sacrificing yourself makes you happy do it, if it doesn't than don't do it.
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>>18670238
Thought about the military? Will give your purpose, not to mention free schooling and health care for the rest of your life. -Cpl, USMC. Used to be fat when I was around your age, now a 28 year old Chad who has been with 92 women. Now as for drugs: stick to weed and booze till you get to college, but keep in mind booze will fuck up your fitness more than anything so really moderate it. In college, stick to weed, moderate booze, molly, coke, and maybe shrooms and acid. Never even try: crack, heroin, meth, or anything else I didn't previously list
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>>18670293
I actually have. Funny enough started seriously thinking about that when I got into fitness and losing weight. I'm in college atm, studying physics. I've considered it, although it would happen after I get my undergrad. I eventually want to get my PhD...
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