I don't care about being confident, I just need to get to

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>>18669872
I had this same issue OP. Always in my head, awkward as fuck, socially inept and so fourth.

For me I went to the doctor, explained all this, got referred to an adult autism institute, got diagnosed, went to counseling for a few years, started working out, became more social, and now I am employed and have a good relationship with a girlfriend.

There is hope, but you have to really work at it.

why did the girl look at you?

The fuck do you mean "manually"?

>>18669895
>The fuck do you mean "manually"?
I am also curious about this.

>>18669895
>>18669901
It means you become aware of your walking and start concentrating on walking normally instead of doing it naturally. It's an autistic thing, and not OP.

>>18669887
>started working out, became more social, and now I am employed and have a good relationship with a girlfriend

I'm really glad you improved yourself, this almost seems involuntary so it's pretty unfair.

I have all of that stuff right now, it's just that no matter how I much I feel like I don't care, I obviously still do because my body betrays me.

>>18669872
I know the feel
kinda solved because short sighted so i do training sessions by going around without glasses, after a bit you become natural since you see nothing anyway. After that its just moving that attitude to standard attitude

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>>18669895
>>18669901
what
>>18669908
said.

basically stepping manually instead of a normal stride, swinging arms perfectly in sync instead of them just hanging, then realizing that perfect in sync looks purposeful or like a soldier, so start trying to do it asynchronously, then remembering youre neglecting thinking about your foot placement/speed, then short/overstep, maybe even trip over yourself. Imagine qwop, in real life.

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I don't know man. Cultivate a carefree attitude. I used to be right there with you but now it seems like such a bitch problem and I can't really offer advice without getting frustrated at you and my (past) self for being unable to figure out something so simple. Just stop fucking worrying. It doesn't even matter if a girl makes you "walk manually", it doesn't matter if you get awkward. You literally need to stop caring. You're going to be incel forever, give it up, nothing can hurt you because pleasure is a temporary illusion that always results in more suffering.