Is self harm worth it?
I am mentally beyond braking point. I am just a little more afraid of death than I am being alive.
I have so much build up emotion that I recently realised I have been deriving pleasure from hitting my head, biting my wrists or punching my face, head, stomach.
In a way it helps release some of what's been building up, but I am really afraid of the consequences of self harm, mostly brain damage.
I'm not insane BTW. Just in constant pain and have no support or help or anyone to talk to.
And unhealthy combination that's lead me to try and find resolution alone through self harm.
>>18660453
Just pinch your nipples instead
No.
And if you're afraid of it then don't even bother, it's cleary not for you.
Do not try to engage into self-harm, alcohol, tobacco or drugs as ways to escape your current status, in the long term they'll make the pain greater than it is.
>>18660644
I actually intended to take up alcoholism as I can buy alcohol in less than a month now.
I would do drugs but I can't figure out how to get any nor would I ever buy online
>>18660651
You're an utter fool if you fall into alcoholism or drugs. What would you expect for your problems to happen? Vanish? Boy, it will be a lot more efficient if you could drag them under a rug than fight it with drugs and alcohol.
>>18660659
Ideally I hope to develop nihilism or die so I no longer feel the need or have the ability to deal with my problems.