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>be me
>everytime change opinion/mood depending on the hours/day.
>don't get along with people irl or ivl, always want to break the 'bonds' that you create with people quickly before they do it first .
>leave them around thousand of messages while they are away
>attaching to them to quickly and trusting them too much even thought you aren't 'naive' and is someone with a pessimistic point of view.
>almost fall in love with them
>block/ignore them , then try to contact them again
>block/ignore them AGAIN then feels bad
>pretends its trolling to yourself.
>regret .
>stalking your 'friends' all the time because you are curious, you want to know who are 'they' and what they think of 'you' .
>struggle to stop hourly stalking
>paranoid af about 'someone' find out about 'something', about your life, your hobbies and everything. You don't want anyone to know these
>suicide thoughts and threats
>your dream is to stop talking with people and continue talking with yourself because you are a coward.
>want to remove your empathy this way you won't feel the need of being with someone else .
>people already told me that i was 'very weird' and now someone told me here that i might have 'BPD' from reading my message which i don't think is true,think of it as barnum effect and i'm a male so there is less chance i might have it
>got another friend and i'm already planning on stop talking to him because he is my 'weakness' and because of unknown reasons (i can't find the answers to them)

Be honest, what might i have ? I think i'm just someone who his a giant faggot because never had any friends