Hey /adv/ I think I may have a serious social problem, let me explain. I feel as if I am constantly alone even though I have a group of friends that I commonly talk to at school. I don't invite them because I am not sure how they would think of how I act socially in private, which mostly is comprised of self loathing and absolute hatred towards others. It's getting so bad that I want to kill myself but I don't want to sadden the people who I think are closest to me, plus I am not sure if there even is a god. Since I can't kill myself I feel like I am just taking up space on this Earth which makes me feel horrible inside. I have several more problems that I wish I could express but I don't want this thread to be tedious for a reader. Is there anything I can do to make this problem stop, or at least weaken? It would be greatly appreciated. (Pic is to get your attention and is not related)
Do you identify as an introvert?
You dont necessarily have to invite somebody over to with in private. Invite somebody you like to a private space so that you cant act more appropriately. Try not to worry so much what others may think of you, but I would suggest not being a complete sad sack from the get-go.
The most important thing I would suggest to you is to seek self-improvement. You'll gain a better sense of yourself, learn skills and ideally make friends along the way.
Nobody is a waste of space and always has endless potential.