>fall in love with my closest friend on the internet for a few years
>understand that we can't really effectively be together (if she by chance reciprocates)
>we met a mutual friend that lives in the same state as her and they get along
>the idea of them dating makes me hurt and jealous (although it may or may not happen)
should i just tell her how i feel? i don't expect anything out of it, but it hurts a lot to keep these feelings bottled inside while still communicating with her everyday we're both socially isolated virgins and this would be the first time someone as close as this to her would confess to her so I worry it'll come as a shock.
part of me thinks that I should just let things be as they should, if by any chance he makes her happy, but another part of me thinks that i shouldn't let go before I ever even tell her how I feel even if I get rejected
>>18631916
while still communicating with her everyday. we're both socially isolated virgins*
meant to put a period there, the sentence looks very strange without it
>>18631916
When making decisions, you should always consider what your endgame is. What you expect, or hope, could come of this. So you confess, but admit you can't be together - the most you're hoping for is some sort of catharsis. I'll tell you right now that catharsis is something you should learn to find on your own, because the world will rarely give you the closure that you need, and relying on it from external sources is going to leave you angry, frustrated, and unfulfilled.
You should really focus on improving your situation beyond being a socially isolated virgin. Being in love with someone is useless unless you can share it with them; unrequited or unfulfilled love is the worst. Especially if you see her moving on without you and you're still alone. Fix your shit first, then worry about love later
If she does reciprocate then why couldn't you be together?
>>18631916
Love is one thing you can be greedy about