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My mother has weeks left to live, dying of cancer, and I'm feeling legitimately suicidal.
The entire year I've been trying to make her proud of me (she always loved me a whole lot but I know I let her down by quitting school before and things like that). I graduated, got a great job in a big company, found a girl willing to marry me and still I keep going back to what I've been saying for the last 10 years (I'm not exaggerating) -- that I don't want to outlive her and I doubt happiness without her even if my investments in other things and people pay off.
So when I've already done things people recommend to get through the grieving process and I still strongly doubt happiness in my future without my amazing mother from whom I have been inseparable, that's what registers the strong suicidal feelings.
Now what :(
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You keep going anyway
You won't have her anymore but you'll still have her memory to bring you happiness
Take lots of pictures
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ciYPWQMzwR4
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>>18629367
I've been smartphone-illiterate my whole life and now I voice record every phone call with her (she's in the hospital), installed some Face-Time thing to be able to see her as much as possible since I work far away from the hospital and home, I video record whenever I'm at the hospital... she teases me to stop being a cry-baby/grow-up and I love for her for it but it's just so hard. I've never been away more than a day from her. I always respected and cared for her. And she's so young too.
>>18629371
Thanks :(
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>>18629371
Pardon me I thought it was just music. I see there's more to it. Even though I just believe in the material world, it's at least a welcome distraction. Can't help but to watch.
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hug n kiss her
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