Ever since I got sexually assaulted 2 years ago men and masculinity

>>18625970
Therapy. If your therapist sucked, get a different one. There is no other way. We had a thread the other day about a guy and hos girlfriend who had been whored out by her mother when she was young. Two people with experience in being abused chimed in and said therapy was what really helped them along.l to accept what happened and move on.

>>18625986
This anon is right. Therapy isn't some sort of magical deus ex machina, it is another person helping you face things, helping you with another perspective, helping you keep inspired to struggle with yourself. Even disregarding the fact that different therapists use different tactics and prefer different theoretical frameworks, the trust/understanding and click between the two of you makes or breaks everything.

Also look into EMDR therapy. It's really simple and strangely effective for PTSD. Best of luck.

>>18625970
I'd be okay staying that way, personally.

It's hard to undo strong tendencies, you might get over it eventually but it was such a big impact on you, idk if you can...

Go lez. Or at least give it a shot if you never have before. It may be right for you.

>sexually assaulted
What exactly?

>>18625986
>>18626003
I may look into EMDR, thank you

>>18626124
Well basically penetrative rape. More than one orifice, let's leave it at that.

>>18626234
What happened to the rapist? Did he go to jail, was there any kind of justice? Therapy and positive thinking aren't always the best answer, sometimes you need real resolution or closure to get over it.

>>18626257
No he didn't go to jail, but I don't need closure on that, honestly.

Quit being a whore you slut it's all your fault