I'm a NEET for a year now have pretty bad anxiety, I only

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I'm a NEET for a year now have pretty bad anxiety, I only leave the house to walk to the store or smoke by the wood fence at my front door. The neighbors across the street are Jamaican (I'm also black btw but born in Canada) they often see me going outside always Chainsmoking although they can't see me in the corner they know I'm there. I would spend more time outside to try to get myself used to it more, I would wake up early morning to watch the birds and insects wake up at the same time. I overhear those Jamaican guys laughing loudly and making fun of me. They could see me this time at the front and anytime they say something offensive about me (not directly but meant for me to hear) I would laugh trying to hide that their insults actually make me want to kill them slowly. Their laughing turned to angry outburst (once again not directly) saying if I was in jamaica the people there would kill me or beat me up. This makes it hard to leave my house but I try my best to ignore them. Also I keep to myself and never talk to anyone including family, at most when my family asks me questions I answer with one or two words. So I don't talk to the neighbors but they hate me. How do I kill myself? Should I bring them with me?