I think I'm headed straight to a fucked up life. I'm

>>18618595
You should do something impulsive. Work up some money, then just take your shit and travel the world for a while.
It's probably the best advise I can come up with.
It helped my friend when he was down.

>>18618614
This is shit advice. Sorry. Impulsive when you're alcoholic can translate to fucking stupid.

Tell the owner, if you're good freinds, what your situation is.

The real barrier to going off the rails when you're teetering isn't you, most of the time. It's people who are willing to support you in getting back on.

Tell him you're drinking too much, and get him to cut you off for a week.

You're gonna hit withdrawal, and it's gonna suck. But you need it desperately. Waking up after NOT drinking is incredible after binging for so long.

Really, it sounds like you'e in kind of a toxic place that enables you to do what you need desperately to stay away from. If you can get another job, do. Or at least tell your boss to cut you off.

Join AA or something. You WILL hit health problems if you don't/

>>18618644
Well, today I get to my parents. I don't really feel the impulse to drink but I know that I won't be able to fall asleep without it. That's usually the trigger when I finally tell myself that I won't drink. At three am I just walk out of my apartment and go to a bar, because I just can't stand being alone with my thoughts. There's some wine in the fridge and hopefully I'll snatch some pills around the house.

degenerate

>>18618595
You need to get away from the problem. You need to quit that job and go to therapy. Your parents will support you I am sure.

Don't get too hung up on the LEZBO (honestly where do you think it will go mate lol She is into pussy like you are and not cock like you too).

There are 7 billion ppl on this planet and you will find someone. You are still young, so you need to get this drinking situation under control.

>>18618595

>This world is a glorious place

Stick on this wonderful sentence. I think you are a good man, but you have to free yourself from slots and alchool. I think you can do it.

>>18618956

The problem isn't that he's an alcoholic, the problem is that he has a lot of issues and feelings that are unresolved that he avoids by drinking.

And then you tell him to get away from the problem, but the problem's in his head, and drinking is his way to get away from said problem.

OP, you probably could use therapy, or at the very least someone to talk to. You're also stupidly young - and you're already acting like everything's over and life will never get any better. Dude, you haven't even hit a third of your life yet. "I'm never gonna find anyone" "no one understands me" but you make no efforts to be understood, and you spend most of your time alone, drunk.

Maybe there are some things you could do to spend more time around people. Spending time with them means less time alone.

>>18619089
My only friends are those who I know from the bar. I go there to be in a solitude amongst people, if you understand me. It feels good to be in a society while noone requires nothing of you. Just sitting at the bar, drinking, ocassionally talking with someone who comes by or sit to you. As I said, the only person I really wanted to spend my time with was her. I don't feel it with other people. It's just like something's not right, missing, like it's not clicking.

>>18619115

Yeah, because you want to get laid dude. I get it. That's part of it, but not the whole part of it. The other part is called chemistry, the way you two interacted that made you feel more comfortable with yourself, you could BE yourself around her. I get that too.

But that's because you wanted to be around her. You don't want to be around anyone else, but you haven't tried to hard to find any further connections. You want to be alone, but you don't want to be alone with your thoughts, but then you're at the bar, "alone" with your thoughts.

>so basically, you don't really know what you actually want

>>18619130
>so basically, you don't really know what you actually want

Exactly.

>>18619141

Then is this a cry for help, or are you just here to tell us you like alcohol and gambling, and that you're miserable because you fell in love with a lesbian?

Shit sucks dude, but there's more to life than booze and girls.

>>18619149

There's also drugs!

>>18619149
Well, I'm kind of lost, and any given advice helps me to reflect on myself and dig deeper to what I actually want to do with my life, maybe.

>>18619130
>>18619149
Also the thing I don't really know what to do about is that I always just really hang out with one person at a time. Before the lesbian friend I had an ldr with a cute girl from a neighbor country. I share everything I go through and everything I experience just with that person who I feel good around and around others I'm rather closed. I don't truly open up to them 100% but it's going there. When I'm with someone like this, it feels special and when I do it with other people I just feel like I'm "cheating" the honest relationship (that's a too harsh of a word but I can't think of an alternative). Thus I can't make friends I guess, because it isn't special. I don't know. I hope you understand me here.

>>18619183
Have you talked to a doctor about how to cut back on the alcohol without getting hit by withdrawal? To a habitual user alcohol withdrawal can be deadly if untreated.

Stop playing slots. It's a ticket to hell.

>>18619551
Firstly this, anon.

>>18618595
>Down four beers in there because they're giving it away for free.
OP where is this magical place and how do I get there?

>>18619551
This.
Play a real game like poker

>>18621045
Every casino really, drunk people aren't going to stop spending money

>>18621055
I'm guessing in burgerland, since casinos here in Aus only give you non-alcoholic drinks for free.

>>18621056
Europe, really.