I can talk to people, go to parties, smile, tell jokes and laugh. But in my head, I have serious problems. Panic attacks, anxiety fits, existential crises, chest pains, throat tightness, dry mouth, pains in my skull from all the stress all while talking to a group of 5 people about how I think it'd be great for organic grapefruit fleshlights would be the latest sex toy trend. I'm so good at acting normal that psychologists deem me to be a normal and mentally healthy person. Sometimes I get so depressed I zone out in the corner of my screen with my eyelids barely cutting my vision off. What's wrong with me?
>>18608134
Why arnt you letting out your really thoughts and emotions. Holding them in more only make it worse. As a kid were you encouraged to keep your feelings to yourself?
>>18608134
Your a normal person, congratulations. Now just try and imagine that most everyone you consider "stable" is going through the same shit in their head and when they're alone. Deal with it and find some people that understand it.
>>18608158
Not encouraged in the sense that others would do so, but encouraged in the sense that my environment simply made it beneficial for me to keep them to myself
>>18608174
*You're; and everyone I know I consider to be sheeple (probably because I'm secretly jealous) and have gone through life in the most predictable ways possible