I fall in love with women but the only thing thats turns me on

find woman with similar sexual habits...?

>>18598831
I would suggest moving away from the fetish so you can enjoy sex with irl women. You can even find another fetish that you like and people are more willing to do. If you completely move away from the fetish, your mind will eventually adjust in order to get off.

Option B would be to go balls out and demand to be fucked in the ass. Some women (I don't know how many) will be willing to do it. You have to be direct and be ready to face potential confusion/disgust. I'm sure some portion of women will do it. Maybe try fetlife? Idk.

I dated one girl who had crazy fetishes, kept them a secret, and then basically never orgasmed from sex. What a complete waste of time, especially for her. She was ill in the head. Don't be like her, whatever you do.

Stop watching porn, masturbate as little as possible and cum only with "normal" "vanilla" thoughts.

>>18598831
>but the only thing thats turns me on and makes me hard is the idea of crossdressing and getting fucked
If you want to find out if you're gay or no, stop fapping AND porn alltogeher. After three months maximum you'll see if you still don't get hard for women. You'll have your answer right then and there.

Op, if you find someone you truly care for then please just ask her.

My husband waited 3 years to reveal to me that he always fantasized about this. It is never something I considered before and he never expected me to act on it, but I decided we should at least give it a try. Pegging is now something that we both enjoy.

There are more women out there who you think that are into that...and even more who are into it but just don't know it yet.