I don't know how to be alone, physically or emotionally. I can't seem to function without a roommate or at least "someone" there.
With companion
>Eat healthy, normally timed meals
>Work out regularly
>Do productive stuff or have fun
>Proper hygiene
Without companion
>Shit meals, lots of skipping
>12+ hours in bed (only leaving for work, computer)
>Shit hygiene
>bored
It's not even a case of gf or friend; put me in a building with someone else and I'm super well-adjusted and happy, but as soon as I'm "on my own," as soon as half a day goes by alone, I end up in bed most of the day or disregarding everything else in my life.
I try to set routines and stuff, but I just feel like ass most of the time (stomachaches/headaches when I try to, you know, live). I dunno if it's placebo, but it just discourages me from being anything other than lazy.
Sounds like codependent behavior
Since you're not attached to anyone in specific chances are you'll set out to find a spouse to groom into becoming codependent on your presence
That would solve your problem of ever worrying of being alone. And since you're human, this leverage over a person might increase the risk of you becoming abusive.
But what do I know?
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I dunno about codependency. Looking it up, I don't have many of the signs (no one's making sacrifices to make me better, and it's not necessarily a specific person.) It's just that I don't tend to function "normally" in life when no one is around. Like no one's watching.
I'm the other way
I thrive on being alone. I can learn new things, improve skills, workout etc.
When I'm with someone I become obsessive about them and can't function as I would if. I had been alone.
In your early to mid twenties, people say you have to get a girl or this and that
But damn, the relationship mind games is fun and all but it really slows down my plans. Not to mention the time and money spent/wasted on a potential who can ghost you at anytime. Its very hard to be invested .