Attractive with zero social skills. How do I get by without dropping

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I’ve tried some of this shit they expect of me, I’ve attended some of these social events. Its SHIT, boring, loud, stinky obnoxious and makes me feel sick and fake. What’s more is when I act like myself or retarded they FUCKIGN laugh, they think it’s an act or some shit. I CANT FUCKING DO ANYTHING. Some fucking retard right now is passed out under my bed because he didn’t realize that when I shook my head at the door and tried to close it, IT MENT FUCK OFF. Zero fucking peace, always some intrusions, expectations, more RESPONSIBILITY. I want none of this, I hate it, I want my peaceful existence back but people just don’t get it.

What do I do, where do I have to go for people to just Fuck Off. I am willing to cut my face or something along the likes if that seem like the most effective measure, however killing myself is not an option. I LIKED how I lived before, I just want that back.

Firstly, sage
secondly, did you expect anyone to read all that shit?

Ouch that sucks. You already tried just acting like yourself around everyone? Like, watch thrashy anime during classes and speak meme language? I think the best way to go about being a social reject is make people believe you really are a social reject. Also, not cutting your hair or shaving might help.

>>18595608
Don't worry anon, you're just in denial right now because your comfy, quiet life that you once had during high school is coming to an end, like all things in life. Give it a couple weeks and take a few moments every once and a while in order to come to terms with the fact you're going to experience change. I know from personal experience change can be uncomfortable, but the more you go through in life changing, the easier it gets.

Hope you well OP

>>18595625
I have gone as far as to watch hentai and bring my loud gaming laptop into class and social events to play c&c or hom&m. I listen to my idol music out loud and infront of all my 'buddies'. Now they fucking listen to idol music and think its cool. I've even tried being completely mute for a few days and avoiding eye contact but got sympathy instead.

I would run away but the money situation would not be good and I would not be able to fund my previous lifestyle. Also, constant 3dpd attention, bordering on sexual harassment.

>>18595640
Why do I have to accept change that is not beneficial or enjoyable to me in any shape or form?

>>18595658
Not everything in life will be enjoyable anon. I know it sucks and university is a new, strange place and you're uncomfortable, but you have live through it. Perhaps tomorrow morning before going to university/leaving the dorm room, tell yourself "I'm going to be open minded today about trying new things." You won't believe how fun things can be, or at the very least it won't be uncomfortable or annoying as it would normally be. Just remember though that if you can't deal with it for much longer and you really want to go back to how it used to be for you before university, just remember, that this too shall pass.