I hate my mom. For at least a year now, I would think almost

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I hate my mom. For at least a year now, I would think almost once a day "god I hate her". And I hate myself for that, because 'I should love her for everything she does' (you know, like still making laundry, cooking almost all the meals - note: she decided to not go back to work after she gave birth to my sister (she's 2 years older) - so, 20 years later, she's still home.)
I can't take it anymore. I'm tired of hating her.
I just turned 18, and I thought that over time, I'd grow older and wiser, and finally realize why I can't tolerate her that much, and hopefully finally be okay with her.
But that moment hasn't come yet. And I've been waiting and thinking for too long, so I feel like I have to make myself change now.
Hell, even in my dreams she's annoying me! In tonight's dream she was on my back all the time, and my uncle was home and noticed it and wanted to talk to me about it privately (and my subconscious would surely have told me great information), but when he started talking she went back in the room, and I woke up a few seconds later.
And this made me feel sad, that I can't even imagine her well in my dreams.

I'm probably missing out details because I can't think really clearly at the moment.
Please help me.
If you need more info on anything, I'll try to stay around and not let the thread disappear too quickly.