>want to die
>drink
>feel better
>sober up
>want to die
>drink
>feel better
Repeat for 3 years then ...
>want to die
>drink
>still want to die
What's happening to me?
>>18590940
Addiction. Get help.
Wanting to die, like any other thought, thing, feeling, or concept, will pass without remainder. Let it pass.
>>18590940
depression mixed with budding alcoholism. maybe try some anti-depressants and quit drinking... trust me, anon. I drank hard for 8 years before quitting. It doesn't ever actually help with anything.
>>18590959
Been on prozac and beta blockers for a while now
>>18590961
the prozac doesn't help the feelings of wanting to die? maybe you should try something else?
>>18590982
I think the earliest I can remember I was 7 staring at steak knife in the kitchen thinking I needed to kill myself for being a disappointment. (Im 30 now).
>>18590992
damn dude, that's heavy. your parents made you feel that way?