its been 2 years since I have last sen her or spoke to her bros.

Write to her.

"Hi" is a very good start.

>>18589642
You probably
A. Were younger
B. Were already more capanle of being happy
C. Were more prepared to fall in love with someone

Now you're getting older, but not old enough to peak financially. You want to be happy, but it's harder as you learn more about the world and accepting the aftermath of your loss. Deep down loving someone else is defeat to you, because you are still attached to someone who is gone.

>>18589672
I don't really know how I would get in contact with her, she dosnt have any social media accounts and even if I could contact her would she even want to hear form me. She was the catalyst for turning my life around and I want to prove to her that I'm better now.

>>18589684
ummmm wow, that's a really good summation of it I think. I have tried to love some others, and while it could be seen as a defeat I honestly don't think I met anyone else I have loved

>>18589642

Same in here.

Eventually it will happen that you start living again, now you are scared. You loved, you suffered. You will be ready again, and if not, you still have yourself.

Almost 4 years in for me.

Just start taking drugs. The pain will never go away.

>>18589695
why did you guys break up?

>>18589921
weren't ever together, she was a close friend of mine and I had fallen prett hard for her, she was the reason I turned my life aroud and now that I'm a much better person I hope that maybe I will be able to see her again and try again.

>>18590000
okay then why haven't you guys talked for 2 years? what was the falling out?
protip: if someone isn't into you, theres a good chance they never will.

>>18589703
Its a perfect summation I don't think youre ready to love in the present, because youre too attached to a concept of love you also know is Disneyland fake since you broke up with your first love

>>18590022
a mix of me not being in a good place and group drama and another person lieing a lot about me after asking her out when he knew I ahd a thing for her and was planning to ask her out.