I'm 36...a full r9k wagecuck but I have a problem. I've tweeted to a lady nurse who's 35 but looks 25 at most for about 4 years.
I can't stop thinking about her but she has made it very clear the she doesn't want friends, turns down doctors on a regular basis, and doesn't want children cause of "bipolar genes."
I'm still torturing myself with being a pathetic orbiter. I can't tweeting to her cause she's the only interaction I have outside of work often for 1-2 months cause I live alone and have no friends. She gives me some positive attention cause she's polite but I need to stop...I need to give up on the dreams cause love isn't real.
I know I'm making myself unhappy by having desires that my only path is to go full monk mode into productive work.
I hate the fact that I adore women or at least my idea what they are that I have built up...but I know I have to stop.
How I stop before I go crazy?
[spoiler]stop speaking in absolutes.[/spoiler]
Get some counseling first. You clearly have some deep rooted problems with your life. Having an honest discussion with an adult will help you get back into reality.
Love is real but next to impossible if you don't try. And who will want a relationship with someone who thinks so poorly of himself. You need some level of confidence and self esteem.
Find a social hobby and work on yourself first. You just might meet the right one exploring a similar interest.
Seriously though, get help. You sound like you are going to kill yourself
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