Today was the last straw for me, /adv/. I got in to my parents

>>18576632
Your in a bad situation and want a way out. An easy one is to die. Stop being alittle bitch and take control of your life.

>>18576640
Eh. It's very hard with a physical disability man. I'm getting surgery 22nd of August and won't be able to work for a long time (6 months). Good Im starting school the 29th of August... have to walk around with crutches tho

Hey.
I'm kind of a pussy for this shit, so I'm gonna be real with you: get help. Go to a therapist and tell him/her you had thoughts like these.

They're not uncommon. Everyone thinks about it time to time, and I get that you think they'll overreact, but it's real shit, and you're underreacting.

>>18576832
Thank you. Do you have experience with this? Not sure what you mean by "being a pussy for this shit".

>>18576852

Just wait it out my man. Hole up like a guerilla warrior and defeat that depression. It's demise will come and you will be on a better mental plane soon enough.

>>18576852
Yeah that is sort of what I meant.
When I was younger I had some serious phobias about terrorists and shit (I live in New York and 9/11 happened when I was young).

It's not suicidal thoughts, but it was something I was so embarrassed about I didn't want to talk to even a therapist or my mom about it. BC it's dumb and I knew it.

A few years later I was seriously depressed and wouldn't leave my house for school because I was so afraid. Failed a year of school and got held back.

Stuff like that and what you're experiencing pass for some people, but for others they get a lot worse. I think I'd be further along as a person now, more than a decade later, if I'd just gotten help earlier and admitted my embarrassing thoughts.

>>18576632
I know those thoughts, I get them as well. Like "if that truck were 200m closer" or "would be nice I were to nod off now and hit that tree at 120km/h". My advice is: Talk to a therapist, and try to remove or find a way to deal with the stress that's causing you to have those thoughts.

>>18576887
Thank you for the comforting words, friend.

>>18576904
That's horrible for you. Do you still have minor phobias about what happened during your childhood?

The thing with my situation is that it's coming from an obligatory surgery I need to have in both my feet because of soccer and snowboarding. It's going to span out during 6 months. 2 months for recovery on each foot. And there might be a 1 month break during the surgeries.

That's really whats keeping my head down at the moment. Nobody wants to hire someone on crutches - and back to the school thing it's pissing me off because I feel ready to go back to school.

>>18576918
>"if that truck were 200m closer" or "would be nice I were to nod off now and hit that tree at 120km/h"
Exactly this.

I might see a therapist... Once I get hold of some coin. I'm totally broke atm.