>Be me, 18 >Study and live abroad >Visit father and

>>18558171
Literally spend time with him now and ask him questions about his childhood and life. You will only regret not doing this, and by doing it, you make his life more loving.

The goal is not to hide your emotions and swallow pain. It is to embrace it, sorrow of this magnitude is one of the many spices of life and it is important to taste - it shows you care. Who could care more about a man than his son. You must go to him, whatever the cost. All you can give to him now and all he wants is your time.

Thank you Anons, both of you.

Just be with him and learn stuffs about him. Ask him what he likes to do and spend your time with him in his hobbies. If you felt you haven't really known your father, he will show you a side beside his fatherly figure. Just get to know the man that has raised you as a loving father.

Like both anon said, you need to embrace the pain because it's all part of life, sooner or later we all part with our loving ones. I never went to the cinema with my father because he always refused ( maybe he had a trauma or something ) but cancer got to him before I managed to bring him. It always sort of plagued my heart that I never got the chance to bring him there.