I don't know where else to turn.
I haven't self harmed in years. I tried killing myself on New Years Eye unsuccessfully. I met a wonderful girl. My life has been okay. But tonight, I want to die. I don't necessarily want to kill myself, but I wish I didn't exist. I wish that I was never born. I wish I had died on New Years Eve. I'm just sitting in my room drinking and listening to sad music and ignoring everyone. My mom doesn't love me. My brother doesn't love me. I have no friends. My girlfriend would be better off without me. I should just do it.
>>18557003
I'm drinking too.
There's a reason for it.
But I haven't tried to kill myself. Nor cut myself.
What's up your butt?
If you know theyd be better off without you, then you know what you're doing wrong.
Instead of kys you should apologize to them and attempt to right your wrongs.
Some random guy out there doesnt want you to.
Love you man, we all go through it, you're not alone. I'll try to keep my eye on the thread.
Use it for spiritual growth
Just know it's your depression lying to you about your gf being better off without you. Chances are your family loves you too, but you can't see it. It'll be ok. I know it doesn't seem like things will get better, but I promise you that you are stronger than you think. Please stop listening to sad music. Listen to something chill, or upbeat. Do something that makes you feel productive. Leave the house maybe. Please don't let yourself sink.
I got a question outside of what OP is talking about.
>Be in a group of guys who are constantly Pol incorrect.
>2 years later, Linkin Park kills himself
>Get called a heartless POS who doesn't understand mental illness.
I have plenty to understand mental illness. I've been around horrible horrible things growing up, but it doesn't bother me to makes jokes. Is this subject and others becoming taboo to talk about now?