I have been taking new anti-depressants that work really well,

apologies for the difficult to read formatting here

>>18550456
I don't know if I have. How were you like before those pills, and how are you now?

>>18550466
I was depressed, anhedonic, but calm and all my thoughts were collected and I was pretty centered. I have been that way for many many years, since the beginning of high school and now I'm 23.

Now I am responsive to outside stimuli, able to enjoy things, but feeling like I cannot process everything my sensors are throwing at me. As a consequence my thoughts are quite less collected, but aside from that the consequences are primarily good, it feels like a high.

The primary complaint is that I am averse to the very concept of not being able to come down from this "high" if I keep taking this pill, which makes me have some pretty bad moments of anxiety. It's probable that my past bad trips caused some trauma and are fucking with me right now.

>>18550521
This is interesting, hearing this phenomenon for the first time. I am inclined to think this is a good thing, being awake from a lifetime of feeling numb is a blessing that many people would die for to feel. You should try to make the best from that, anon.

>>18550544
it's because i did my own research into what symptoms were primarily representative of what chemical and what pills targeted what and settled on the idea that i need an ndri and it works

the fact my mother smoked while she was pregnant also further makes sense for dopamine deficiency, having been born addicted to nicotine most likely

it's great but i need to battle this persistent panicking feeling so sometimes it also sucks

>>18550595
i changed up my typing style because i am very tired and i will now fall asleep