Hi /adv/ Idk what to do. I'm 23. Live in Canada. I'm

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Hi /adv/

Idk what to do. I'm 23. Live in Canada. I'm struggling with depression and anxiety. I've held down a decent paying job for the summer and am in the middle of university. I think I might have a sort of toxic relationship with my father ... It feels bad saying that. I don't really know anyone in person and feel super isolated. Since my parents gambled my student loans away right before they split a few years ago, I have been barred from student loans. My dad said he'd pay for me to go to school as long as I lived with him, but not anywhere else. But after this year, he has made it like he is not going to be paying for it anymore. I'm not allowed to get anything for myself without being questioned or even go anywhere without the validity of going there being questioned as well. I'm told I use my disabilities to take away the responsibilities of my actions... And it has been insinuated by him that I am a hypochondriac just like my mother...

I think a dog would really help me cope with my major depressive disorder, anxiety and adhd... But I'm not allowed to here because I've been told I'm not responsible or stable enough by my father.

I can't live with my mum because she is not okay in her own way. I grew up with her multiple suicide attempts and sickness and verbal, physical and emotional abuse. I didnt realize thats what it was at the time but I do now as an adult. She is manic depressive/bipolar and has disowned me multiple times even in adulthood.

I have enough saved for the first semester of the school year coming up... I dont know. I feel like I need to leave. For me. But idk if it is feasible. And my mental health is iffy at best. I've been referred by my family doctor for mental health services... But I've been waiting for over a year and even after contacting them several times about it, they havent even been able to provide me an appointment date.

What about rent? And holding down a job? Would I stay in this isolated town?

Help?