hey, i don’t open up emotionally allot. but your all blank

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hey, i don’t open up emotionally allot. but your all blank faces in different countries so idc about doing it with you, and i got some shit to get of my chest anyways.
i started dating this girl, she’s attractive, she’s fit, she’s ditsy and affectionate. she’s almost everything i want in a girl.
she’s in another city. and it hurts so fucking bad.
because we live so far away from each other we ended up sleeping together at the end of our first date, i know it sounds awful but i live so far away, she said “i wanted to be good enough for so you’d want to come back” it was hot af, how could i say no, and we found each other so perfect it was bound to happen anyways.
now I’m stuck back in my shitty city and she at hers.
when I’m not around her i feel empty and board, i try to sleep in as long as possible so the day goes by quicker. I’m just counting down the days until next Friday, when i get to be with her again.
i only find joy in her and lifting. i don’t even care to jack off anymore, everything so grey and boring.
i always though “love hurts” was a dumb cliche from movies or girly romance books.
but i think i understand now, love is when you invest yourself in someone els, and when they’re not with you, you’ve lost that part you invested, in my case, happiness.
i don’t like this, actually i fucking hate it, I’m a fucking husk right now.
I’m moving to her city soon, not just because of her but my friends mostly live there and one has a room for pretty cheep for the city.
If you’re reading this, i don’t know why I’m telling you my bullshit, but thanks for listening.