>be me >the woman of my dreams, the light of my life, is

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>be me
>the woman of my dreams, the light of my life, is ready and I'm not exaggerating when I say she's willing to get with me and is practically setting up a landing strip to her vagina
>I'm getting over mad anxiety and depression due to 3rd world tier nutrition and isolating myself for 2 years
>she understands the dark place I'm coming from and mentioned the timeframe of three months until my spirits are back to as high as hers are
>Think she might've mentioned three months because that's how long it is until a trip I planned for us that she knows about
>I don't wanna wait but I'm physically drained and am literally malnutritioned to the point where I get cold way too quick and it brings out anxiety symptoms in me and emotionally I'm still getting used to actually being around people
>I'm fully aware she won't wait around forever, she wants me now, I've realized that as long as I am happy and confident she /will/ accept me for who I am
>I'm a stupid piece of shit and instead of talking about our childhoods in each others arms at hers I'm sat on my own billing zoots at 6.45am and I'm still scared I'll lose her in the time I get back to the world of the living fully
>I want to believe she will wait
>when she asked me to wait for her in a letter 3 years earlier I did, and she got better, but I got much worse and cut her off to protect her from it.
>I want to believe she will wait
>she makes it clear she needs me to be the master of my own happiness before she lets anything happen but she's game the second I do
Tell me she's the one, /adv/, I swear in the name of all that is good and pure I can't fuck this up, I know time is running out and I'm scared I'll slip low enough that I'll mis my last chance