How to have normal human relationships and find a gf? I go out

>because I can't be myself and open up with people

Sounds like you are an introvert. Just keep meeting up with these same people (preferable 1 on 1 or a small group of 2-4) and eventually you will be comfortable enough with them to open up and be yourself. Might take a long time, maybe even months but eventually you will get there.

It only took me 8 months to get close enough to another human being to talk about my emotions.

>>18536175
The problem lies not only in them, it lies in myself. Everything in my life is pretty fine (well, I've never had a gf I guess), but I can't stop feeling insecure and distressed. I can't chill up, I don't trust people, I feel no connection to anyone or rather even when I feel it, I cannot express it.

I'm meeting a therapist and he's been helping me with my direction in life but I think I need something more. Maybe group therapy...

>>18536194
>I can't chill up, I don't trust people, I feel no connection to anyone or rather even when I feel it, I cannot express it.

Like I said, time is the answer. You sound pretty much like me. My only friends are the ones from work because I was forced into a room with them day in and day out until I could start trusting them. Until then I was completely closed off and had very little to say.

How old are you? I am 29 and have only just gotten this shit figured out in the last couple years.

>>18536235
23, 24 in two months...