This is the thing, I consider myself a straight person although sometimes I do gay things.
For example, I have toys to play with my ass and I like get fucked from time to time (in a gay sauna, always using protection). I also watch gay porn and I have considered going to cruising places, although I prefer to do gay stuff in a sauna because I can have a shower afterwards.
Even all that, I have never kissed a guy. I do not enjoy blowing another cock (I've tried), and often I feel ashamed when I cum to gay stuff like porn or because I have a dick inside my ass. That happens ONLY after I cum.
I would like to know whether anyone else feels the same, and what would you recommend to me. (I do not plan to quit doing gay stuff, but any recommendation is welcomed).
>>18535117
How do you feel about fucking girls?
I am more than down with fucking women but still consider myself straight. To me calling yourself bi implies a more or less equal attraction to both sexes, or at least being able to envision yourself in a relationship with both. Women also do not evoke the same level of purely physical lust in me that men do. Still they can arouse desire in me and I love being intimate with them.
Accept that no one else is going to agree with your personal definition, and that it matters little. You are not obliged to tell anyone in your life who you have sex with. If you have issues with this side of yourself I don't really have concrete suggestions, it's a learning process coming to terms with turn ons that part of you recoils from or that you feel don't align with the way you usually see yourself. That applies to your situation but also to people with fetishes they are not completely comfortable with. Embrace that sexuality is a wild and animalistic part of you that you have no control over, and that many people in one form or another love that mix of lust and taboo factor. They don't lovingly call sex dirty for nothing.
Also playing with your own ass is not gay, not anymore than jerking yourself off is.
You only get one lifetime. Cheers.
>>18535124
Great as long as I feel some kind of connection with them. Fucking random girls or whores makes me feel the same as being fucked by a guy: pleasurable but regrettable.
>>18535117
Seems like you are bisexual. No big deal. Just move on.