I called after two months begging for my ex back and I regret it even though they said they want to get back together. I can tell they don't really have feelings for me and just don't want to be alone and need somebody to use again. I agreed to help them with something today but I don't know what to do after that's over with. I really am in love with them, but I don't want to get hurt again and go back to the habits that caused us to break up in the first place. I don't think they really ever had feelings for me, they just saw the whole thing as a practical, temporary convenience, and it's so hard for me to just accept that. I spent this whole time trying to get over it and see it all clearly and just caved ... anybody who can offer some guidance or perspective would be appreciated, but you can just call me an asshole too. I deserve it for being hung up on someone who hurt me so much.
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is this a polyamorous thing
>>18523714
>I agreed to help them with something today
You spent most of your OP telling us this person used you the whole time for convenience and the first thing they do after you beg is to have you help them with something. They don't give a shit for you, you are cheap labor.
>>18523747
Yeah I know. I don't even know how to feel now.