Hey /adv/, for a while now I've faced the issue of not really

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Hey /adv/, for a while now I've faced the issue of not really caring about anyone, like I really do not give a damn about what anyone feels like, what anyone has done. Classmates approach me and talk to me occasionally, I do reply and we have a small chat but after a minuscule amount of time I just lose interest in the conversation and feel like I don't have anything to say to continue the conversation but they seem like they do so I keep awkwardly ending conversations just because I don't want to talk, this is the case with almost everyone that's tried talking to me. I almost never initiate any conversations because I do not care about what others want or think, instead I have long monologues with myself inside my head. I really have 0 motivation to go out and hang out with friends even if they call me to go with them, I don't care that I disappoint them I just only really care about myself. I really dislike people in general in my area, I feel really disappointed in them for no real reason. Whenever someone messages me I just feel this huge amount of dread and want to throw my phone away because I know that I'll have to spend time chatting with these people even though I just want to be left alone. I wouldn't really consider myself depressed, I do not want to self-diagnose myself but I don't think any of this is right and I do not know how to get out of this mindset. Whenever I try to change this state that I am in and eventually go out I just want to go back home and spend time with myself. I feel like a therapist wouldn't help me much, ones here just shove pills in their patients' throats instead of having any long conversations or trying to solve their fears or whatever else through verbal therapy. What am I supposed to do? How do I change myself? What am I supposed to do feel motivated about talking to others? I do not want my friends and family to feel meaningless to me...