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How does one who hate people make new friends and most importantly, find a long standing relationship with beautiful loving women?
I'm 30, I've no close friends that would hang out with me (friends I consider close have wives and don't spend time with other boys alone). I'm angry. I was used by one women for past year and all I'm left with are depressions. I spend at least hour a day thinking about suicide. It just seems like easy way out of this sometimes. Sure, I can eat, play games, fap to Internet porn. I'm living in great luxury compared to some other people. But I don't consider it a well spent time. I dream of relationship, family, happiness. How can one get even close when my state of mind is constantly like that? People don't like me and I can understand why. I'm quiet, it takes too much before I open myself and have fun... You can call me beta and that's what I am.
I'm trying to run now and travel alone. But when I'm alone, that feeling always comes back. I walk in forest in national park, beautiful nature, pleasant wind, and my mind is occupied by that pseudo-relationship, by that bitch that used me, and I thought I loved her, and I won't find...
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You don't hate people, clearly, but you have adopted some misanthropic thoughts by being wronged by someone. All I know is if you want something it will come but you have to accept you want it and then stop thinking about this thing. Not only will you diminish your chance of success by overthinking but you will also be perceived as 'dependently offensive' to the opposite gender (Or, you know, a potential partner let's say). If you're unable to be amongst nature and completely let your mind be absorbed in the present then you're basically just going to wind up in this vicious circle; that is to want for someone but to destory your chances of finding them by obsessing with these thoughts. You have to let your mind be free with practice and strict deliberation.
When you have these thoughts arise recognise them and and watch them float by like clouds, impermanent and passing, then pay attention to yourself and the world around you (What physical sensations does the climate affect,how does it feel to breathe oxygen in and out of your lungs, what particular sounds are around you and what can you hear etc)
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Heavily suggest nofap. Just go one week and tell me you're not 100% more motivated to get out there and meet people. It will make a difference to your mindset i promise you
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Thank you for your support anons. I realize I wouldn't be a good husband and father in my current state of mind.
I'm going for a beer with friend I wasn't at beer with for a long time. Hopefully, we're gonna talk about something else.
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