Hi everyone, I need some advice. I fell in love with an extremely

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Hi everyone, I need some advice.
I fell in love with an extremely private, closed off kind of guy last winter. We hit it off immediately, he fascinated me and I felt everything for him. It was a long distance thing, we live two hours from each other which is nothing in the grand scheme of things. He was always hesitant to see me, every time after spending time together, you could tell it was just too much for him. I felt further and further away from a committed relationship with him. I decided to move away to see if I could start my life elsewhere. He was upset about it and rightfully so but we still skyped all day everyday. We kept in contact until I returned a couple months later, completely broken about my failure to find a job or progress in my life. I really thought we would go somewhere but again he wasn't interested in pursuing further. I just couldn't understand how somebody I felt this connection with couldn't want me. He kept encouraging me to date other people and not to hold out for him. At first, I rejected the idea but I ended up dating a couple people casually when we would go on our many breaks. He always said "do whatever, just don't tell me about it." I kept a lot of my experiences to myself, I didn't want him to know that I was dating other people but holding on to hope that he would one day want to be with me. It finally came out full force during an argument in late April. I told him everything, I told him that I was sick of waiting around for something that was never going to happen. He lost it. He blocked me, and according to emails sent anonymously from his "friend," he prefers to pretend I don't exist.
I'm trying to pretend he doesn't exist either but it still hurts because I think of him. It's been over two months of no contact but I still wake up in the middle of the night and hope he's on the other end of the phone.
How do I get over this? I feel terrible, I just want to get better.