This thread will probably be useless, but some of you may have

>>18488884
Anyways, I'm just rambling at this point, but what I'm trying to say is that I'm feeling fucking overwhelmed by this current routine of mine, especially my job, and it doesn't help that I'm in a post-psychodepressive state of apathy. I feel like I don't even care about my life or anyone else's anymore. I'm just staying alive out of sheer inertia. Well, that's it, thanks for reading and thanks in advance for the possible reply. Have a nice day.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PoPL7BExSQU
Also, here's some good jazz. The thread theme if you will. Pretty much the only thing that makes me feel anything nowadays and still have hope for the future, somehow. By the way (just venting at this point) I want to study neuroscience in university. There's only one in my country which offers the course, so it's kinda tough. I should be studying. If I don't get in for neuro, I honestly don't know what I'll do with my life. It's pretty much the only concrete thing I have when I think about my future.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqHe50_tBVc

Bump.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cv9NSR-2DwM

Bump with one of my favorites.

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To me you seem exhausted. You could try quitting classes for now and use your energy finding more manageable job.

Also this
http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/9190758

Bumping with some news. I just decided to start a small experiment regarding sleep deprivation induced psychosis. I'll try to go a few days without sleeping to try and get a new perspective on things. Might do me some good, might do me some fucking bad, but I thought I might make my life a little more interesting. Also, going to work will be easier if I don't have to wake up and shit.

>>18489669
Finding a job with a salary even close is literally impossible right now, and I can't quit classes because the test is in November, and the last classes for the prep course start in August anyways, so it's not even worth it. Even though I consider it impossible to go on like this, my only option is to go on like this.

>>18488890
Bruhv if you got clinical depression, keep on your meds

Also, don't know your situ, but you shouldn't have to support your parents... that's their job to you.
Leave the nest. Take a family hiatus.

Do not do sleep deprivation therapy. Shit sounds butt fucking retarded. Sleep well.
Drink water. Wear good clothes. Eat good food.

Ask your boss to help organize and prioritize at work. Let them know you're feeling overwhelmed. Get them on your side in helping you achieve the company's goals.

Talk to the teacher about the same shit.

Life becomes a Hell of a lot easier when you can have many difficult conversations.

And if this depression is still eating you, seek help. People train decades in order to help you.

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>>18489682
>Finding a job with a salary even close is literally impossible right now
Even if that's true it seems you are literally about to die in that job you should be looking for another. I bet your family will manage better with lower income than with no income at all. And even if you don't you have to admit to yourself you just can't do it.

>I can't quit classes because the test is in November
If you aren't studying what's the point of taking a test? I meant you should quit school for a while.

>Even though I consider it impossible to go on like this, my only option is to go on like this.
Then why did you make this thread?

>>18489695
>Also, don't know your situ, but you shouldn't have to support your parents... that's their job to you.
They're going through some tough times financially, so I'm helping out. It does piss me off that I get to use 20% of my salary after paying for my brother's school, my course and some more leeching from my dad to make ends meet though.

>Leave the nest. Take a family hiatus.
I wish I was prepared to do that. It would be a fucking mess in every sense. I would probably end up overdosing on some shit or just downing a fuckton of sleeping pills on a bad day drinking like crazy to be honest.

>Ask your boss to help organize and prioritize at work. Let them know you're feeling overwhelmed. Get them on your side in helping you achieve the company's goals.
The job isn't actually that hard. The main problem is that most of the time I'm actually at home skipping work. I do feel like shit while working, but that's me, not the job.

>Talk to the teacher about the same shit.
Two or three teachers for each subject and possibly 70-80 people in the classes. I think you got the wrong idea. I missed almost half of the subjects already, my only hope is to go every single day during revision.

>Life becomes a Hell of a lot easier when you can have many difficult conversations.
True. Talking about my thought broadcasting delusion to some friends I trust really made me feel better, and possibly even alleviated the symptoms.

>And if this depression is still eating you, seek help. People train decades in order to help you.
I'm currently seeing a psychologist, but it ain't doing shit. We just talk about how shit my life is and how nice it could be if I actually did something. I don't know, but I have the feeling that some people aren't really capable of making good use of a psychologist.

>>18489777
>Even if that's true it seems you are literally about to die in that job you should be looking for another. I bet your family will manage better with lower income than with no income at all. And even if you don't you have to admit to yourself you just can't do it.
I do plan on quitting once (and if) I get into university next year.

>If you aren't studying what's the point of taking a test? I meant you should quit school for a while.
I'll take the test because I have to take my chances, but yeah, not studying now will probably fuck me up real good at the test. Quitting school for a while isn't a possibility though, as that would mean working at that shit longer.

>Then why did you make this thread?
Again, I said the thread was probably going to be useless, but I was interested in what some of you had to say about my situation.