anyone know what it's like to be unable to enjoy things

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anyone know what it's like to be unable to enjoy things unless they're sufficiently awful or sad? i want to understand how out of kilter i am with other people in general?

in fiction i can't enjoy anything unless it covers things such as murder, horror, death or total hopelessness. things like 'dead space' or lovecraft, gore videos are interesting to me. true detective was another huge hit, it was about a murderous child abuse cult that the main characters busted.

but movies like the avengers or game of thrones aren't interesting to me at all. nothing else is.

people would associate all that with an 'edgy teen' phase but i'm much older than that. i'm willing to accept insults like 'fedora' but i like what i like. i can't become emotionally invested in media or news stories if they're not horrific.

if you read this and believe i'm in the wrong, how would i go about readjusting my own tastes?