Hey all, First a short introduction, I am a 23 yo student (m)

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Hey all,
First a short introduction, I am a 23 yo student (m) from a north-western european country. Met a girl online about a year ago, and we are now in an LDR for almost 10 months. She's 26 year old, from Japan, has had one previous relationship (in real, maybe it is relevant).
Of course I love her a lot, so I did a lot to come see her. After saving up for a ton of time, I finally managed to buy tickets to visit her this summer, and stay at her place for 43 days. The costs are over 2500 euros even though I am not rich at all. After this I plan to study abroad in Japan, and if everything works out well maybe even emigrate.

Anyways, all was fine and we were both super excited until something happened. It made me realize that there might be a bigger problem lying underneath our relationship, namely it feels like i love her more, than she loves me. The problem being, that I am making a huge commitment to come see her, not only now, but also longer term. Meanwhile, if i am brutally honest with myself, I have not seen anything of the sort from her.
But it wasnt this that made me realize this, but another thing that happened. After talking on skype about her friends and stuff, i mentioned that i'd love to meet them. She said, that I cannot meet her friends. The same happened when talking about her sister. We did talk about meeting her parents, but she only wants me meeting them as a friend, not as boyfriend.

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