Hi /adv/. I think that I might have depersonalisation. Since I was 12 I have been having these feelings. I feel like I am just an observer. i would describe it as looking from the back of my head. Life just feels automated. like I lost all of my control.I cant focus and All of my motivation is gone. sometimes time moves slowly or quickly. I have anxiety atacks and overthink just about everything. Worst thing about it are the feelings. I feel like I lost all joy in life. I lose all empathy and start doing things, that I normally wouldnt.
I realy need and advice if it really is depersonalisation or something completly different. It is tearing me and my relations with people apart.
Everyone goes through this at some point, usually accompanied by an existential crisis. You either ignore it and immerse yourself in escapism, stew in depression because of your awareness of it or live a life of freedom because of your awareness of it. I recommend you to read "The Myth of Sisyphus".