I got into S&M porn as a teen. I fapped almost exclusively

>>18467822
I am a woman who gets incredibly turned on when I read news stories of other women getting raped and beaten. this usually leads me to trying to find rape porn for hours and talking to rapists about their rape victims. The porn makes this way worse. I've had to forgo porn because even normal porn leads me to the extreme stuff. I always feel disgusting and guilty after binging rape porn so I realized that I just need to assert self control and not watch porn anymore. And before any of you faggots say that this is proof that women want to be raped I wanted to say that I don't imagine myself as the one being raped but as the rapist. I don't actually think that rape is justifiable or good just like OP feels disgusted about molestation. My sexuality just got fucked up along the way some how.

People like OP and I shouldn't watch porn and should avoid news articles because they can be majorly triggering when your brain associates violence with pleasure.

>>18468232
OP here. Thanks for sharing.