>Come home from uni
>Start computer
>Eat cereals
>Browse the net till 2AM
>Go to sleep
>Rinse and repeat
I have these stuff i'd "like" to do, like learning to play the guitar, or start a drawing, but i never do it
i've been like this for so long... I know the only cure is to start doing stuff, but i can't.
I think there are lots of fears involved. For example, when i was younger, i just did stuff without asking myself questions, so i was enjoying it. Now, I can't help but have negative thougts when i engage in something. Like, i'm drawing stuff, and i'm worrying about stuff like "it's not good enough, i should draw more" etc etc, thus resulting into me being more and more absorbed in negative fantasies, imagining myself failing, and stuff like this.
So i just avoid doing stuff to avoid confronting all this negativity, and i numb myself on the internet with constant entertainement.
How can i make things fun again ? How can i surpass all this insecurity, how can i believe in myself again ? The answer is to probably just do it, but i cant, even though it's the irrational choice... The more i avoid things, the harder it is to do them... Fucking vicious circle, if only i was disciplined
Make a to do list (realistically planned) and stick to it. It's baby steps.
Also your problem sounds like a light depression, but you can break out of it. After Uni, go take a walk in the Park. No cellphone, no laptop, no distractions. Take a Paper and Pen with you and write down what you truly want from this gift that Life is. Where do you want to be next year? Where in 5 years?
Then break down the smallest steps towards it.
>>18466294
Getting a part-time job helped me with these exact problems. I get paid, interact with people for a few hours every day, and now that I have a schedule to stick to I use my free time more wisely
i got the same problem as OP except instead of uni i have a part time job and it hasnt helped any. the infrequent schedule, working weekends, and nearly full time hours for not enough pay if anything makes it worse
>>18466320
Do these really work ? I've tried list before and i never stick to them.
The walk in the park sound tempting. But what if i don't really know where i want to be in 5 years ? How can i be sure of what i really want ?
>>18466325
It's something i've already considered, maybe i should really do it then...
>>18466409
Well if it's nearly full hours it's not really a part time job, maybe you should try one which is easier ?
My problem, also.
What makes it worse is, I'm in a limbo, where I'm not in school, but can't work, or go to college, because I never made final work for high school, and I just can't make myself do it, when I do, I just become stressed and depressed, I used to be anorexic last year because of this, it's literally killing me.
I really don't know what to do.