I'm 18, athletic and my natural hormones have started to, if not already, peak.
I am incredibly fucking horny all the damn time and I can't stop thinking with my dick.
I mean, I can have a wank, and 30 minutes later be just as horny as I was before.
I'm a virgin due to self confidence issues (such as anxiety and paranoia), and I don't think I could bring myself to get a girlfriend, because I am mentally struggling just taking care of myself.
But as a result I've been getting off with girls online and I feel like an absolute degenerate. Its not that they're unattractive, but its more that I never wanted to be like this. I never wanted to be such a shut-in degenerate.
I honestly hate myself and its really just adding to my problems.
I don't know what to do or how to stop.
>been getting off with girls online
where? I'm only asking because I'm kind of in the same boat as you except that.
Dont be a shut in. Get out. Play something. Sex with other people is much more enjoyable than wanking. Dont feel bad about wanking though. It is natural and normal, despite what your rabbi tells you.