>Jerking it to porn >One second you think it's the

>>18451275
I only use porn as a starter. It give me an idea, and gets a picture in my head. By the time I'm get close to cumming, I'm not even watching the porn, and basically fapping to the scenario I've come up with in my head.

>>18451275
I use Cam4

Let me guess, you're Catholic?

Look for every reason to hate it when you're not jacking to it. Imagine the kind of deprived person that actually likes it, and the sad scene of them alone in their room acting on it while the real world passes them by outside. Take pride that you're not like them.

>>18451375
But that's bullshit.

You can read a pointless book and the "world passes you by". It is questionable what you really miss by letting "the world pass you by". It is stupid to feel good by comparison to imaginary and arbitrarily selected other people - you don't know so much about other people and deriving your self-respect from being better than people you consider of low value is just a primitive instinct.

>>18451275
I feel the same guilt, OP. I wish I could channel it soehow to make myself a better person

>>18451275
Lust controls your mind
This is why i believe cheating isnt worth the struggle

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>>18451275
Dont reject longing desire, but neither accept it.
Instead rest in the natural state.

When you watch porn you have the awareness you like it.
After you cum you have the awareness you dislike it.
In both cases your natural awareness of experiences remains the same.
Rest in the nature of that awareness.

As for negative thoughts, you could not stop them even if you tried since they are simply what arises to your luminous(recognizing) awareness.
For that same reason it is not needed to stop negative thoughts. Nor is it needed to produce positive thoughts.
Since both wishing to stop negative thoughts and gain positive thoughts are in themselves thoughts arising in awareness; you can never stop the flow of thoughts.

What you need to do is identify with the awareness of the thought, instead of the thought itself. Like watching a movie play in front of you, without interacting with it.
Since all thoughts both positive and negative are just projections of your own mind, simply watch them go by as if you are in a dream.

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>>18452321
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