So I've had some pretty bad mental health issues since I

I think you should find friends. Emotional support + takes your mind off of things without actively ignoring things.

You could always say what you feel here on 4chan, but expect to be roasted by strangers from time to time.

I'm sorry to hear that. Your family sounds the same as mine without the drugs and crime.

All you can really do is get away from your family.

After getting into an argument with my own dad, I came to a realization; my family is pretty fucked up. If I stayed around to long, I'll get caught up in this mess. So, I left.

Your's and my own family are a toxic environment. They are poison to the mind.

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>>18450473
had an eight year spell of this. I learned to control my mind a little better. there are many ways through this.

They say it will get better. That is a half truth. you have to activly engage with this issue.

On that note do not try to renvent the wheel, there is a lot of material out there find what you relate with.

I am in the same rut, or at least a similar one.
Sometimes when I have no one to talk to, I write my thoughts into a journal, or I record what I'm thinking or feeling into a voice recorder. Many times the act of just saying things out aloud has made me feel better, even if I'm just talking about how I feel nothing at the moment or numb.

I wish I had a solution OP, I really do. I think that a lack of emotional affect or depersonalization is a survival mechanism more than anything else. Sometimes, I've found meditation, just sitting and collecting my thoughts to be helpful too. Good luck man.