Very long and emotional post about my life. Sorry, I just needed

Since the freshman year, I love one girl (my classmate). She knew about my feelings, but didn't care at all. This school year has been different, we started talking a lot, also hanging out sometimes. She got me to places I would never go, also did things I would never do, for example drinking and smoking. She surely has "bad influence" on me, but I don't care. I realised I love her more than anything I know. Me falling in love has been the biggest mistake I have ever done. Wonder why? She's got a new boyfriend, and she's telling me about him, she doesn't seem to be loving him that much, but still. She's 17, he's 24. Im 18 by the way. She clearly sees me as friend only, I never ever hanged out with a girl before, so I'm happy I can be a friend atleast, but at the same time, that agony is crippling me more and more every day. It is harder for me to think about anything else but her in the past days, I can't sleep, I can't eat properly. I've cut myself a little to feel different kind of pain, didn't help obviously.
I can't do this any longer. I feel like telling her no matter the consequences is the best option, I am sure she would say no, but still see me as a friend who she likes. If so, I wouldn't be able to hang out with her anymore, my heart is always on fire every time I look her in the eyes.
There is no way I can lose contact with her for another few years since she's my classmate and I see her every day in school.
There's probably only one way out of this misery.

You're so close to her already so why don't you just go ahead and be who she wants, only through a sudden change her feelings could change aswell.
Most of your post is whining though that's annoying to read

Normie advice would be to hit the pub

>>18404091
That sign is from the 42 street bus terminal. I remember looking at those while i was on my way to pick up my EX from the bus terminal.

1. Get some male friends
2. Get some female friends
3. Stop complaining